Mommy be strong...

Please dont bail out on me. I miss having you with me. I want to spend my evenings chatting with you about work, my personal life and everything else under the sun. I dont want to lose you to depression again. Its been 11 long years and the motherly love i crave so much for vanished from my life just like that. Its been lonely... i trampled and stumbled through life without your cheer and warmth. You neglected me for 11 years.

Its been 1.5 months since you snapped out of your depression. Please dont let that be short lived and leave me again.

Coddie and i miss you very much.

I know the pain you're going through. So many uncountable contributing factors affecting your mental state of mind.
I need you to be strong, do not look back. Look forward and beyond with your children.

I see you sliding but i will try my best to give you a grip and nip this blooming depression in the bud.

Brought my mom to the polyclinic this afternoon and the doc simply prescribed panadol and diazepam for relaxant and said he does not have sleeping pills and when he knew my mom was depressed, he quickly chased us out of his clinic.
This doctor is so clinical that it makes me sick.

Im going to arrange an appointment with my mom's former psychiatrist @ mount elizabeth whereby i could get better medication for my mom to allow her to sleep
for the past 1 month, she has not slept . She has not slept more than 2 hours in a day
How on earth can a human body sustain such fatigue? and she works and works non-stop, overdoing things and tiring herself out so much that her body aches so bad today

Gave my mom a foot massage..
hugged her and comforted her whilst i was crying inside.

How i wish my brother was here with us in Singapore...he's never ever here with us and always abroad.
sometimes i wonder how strong i can be..
i feel so suicidal sometimes... im so tired..6 depressions in all...11 years in all...
Last night i cried non-stop..looked like a total wreck this morning
no amount of blusher "painted" on my cheecks could light up my drained drained so very drained face..

im so sorry to my colleagues who have to stand in and handle my cases.

mommy...be strong for me please.

you can ...

pull through...