Just another day.

Work was extremely busy today for me and so was yesterday actually. The whole team was down and we're shorthanded. My work is strewn all over the place and im not sure if i have left anything out. I NEED TO GET ORGANISED! Today Felix came by to walk with me @ Suntec but i wasnt in a mood to shop for my chinese new year clothes. Even a smile took me so much effort and my heart was heavy. Maybe its my hormones acting up again. Oh well..i was quite a pooper..i apologised to felix.Sometimes i feel like im such a boring person..AGHHHHHH! **SORRY...i just needed to let out some steam and sSsssSSSRREEAAAAMMMM****
: ( dont feel any better...

Krabi

Oh yes. i just returned from Krabi not too long ago.

My group of friends and i went to Krabi and stayed at Ao Nang - Kalene Villa.

The villa was beautiful. We had 6 rooms in all, with a private pool and beautiful view to boot.

I will be fine...just give me time...

Lately, i have been having one too many frequent dreams and they are all revolving around the same theme and that is: Abandonment. Everynight im having the same dreams and every morning i awake, feeling upset and tired. I wonder if what my life experiences so far with my family and my ex had left me feeling vulnerable and forlorn. Im so tired...Im so tired of having this paranoia which engulfs me. I just want to be really confident in this relationship that i have and place my confidence in Felix that he would take care and love me without the slightest doubt. Im fighting my inner demons and i wish that i could tell him and i wish that he would comfort me. Tom would be our 9 months together and things have been going well. I never had a heated arguement with him. We never really had those trivial pickings on one another. We always apologise if things went unfairly wrong. In a nutshell, he is my perfect someone.

Cannonball by Damien Rice

Cannonball by Damien Rice

Cannonball LyricsArtist(Band):Damien Rice

there’s still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
there’s still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
it’s still a little hard to say what's going on

there’s still a little bit of your ghost your witness
there’s still a little bit of your face i haven't kissed
you step a little closer each daythat I can´t say what´s going on
stones taught me to fly
love, it taught me to lie
life, it taught me to die
so it's not hard to fallwhen you float like a cannonball

there’s still a little bit of your song in my ear
there’s still a little bit of your words i long to hear
you step a little closer to me
so close that I can´t see what´s going on
stones taught me to fly
love taught me to lie
life taught me to die
so its not hard to fallwhen you float like a cannon..

stones taught me to fly
love taught me to cry
so come on courage, teach me to be shy'
cos its not hard to fall,

and I don't want to scare her
its not hard to fall
and i don't want to lose
its not hard to grow
when you know that you just don't know