My heart is twisted in twines..i do not know what i should do.
i wanted to start afresh but the tears and remorse burnt the resolve i had
i couldnt bear a grudge but neither could i forget what he has done to me on all days but that.
how could anyone do such a thing.
and nw i find myself dining with him again.

he spoke to me about a proposal diamond which his friend has brought in..
hw could he even think of proposing when we had barely recovered fr the mess that he had put me through
i told him that i can not accept and i would not view the diamond with him today

he told me that he doesnt want to buy a new car anymore so he could have more $ saved for our future
but guess what he did today. he spent $3k without a flinch on a Sram XX groupset.
why do u need it when u already have the top 2nd best?
this #$3k what part of the $ i withdrew fr our joint a/c to him when i closed our joint account.

it was a right thing to do so parting would not be so messy

i just said "wow" $3k...
hw do i settle with him?
i could let him go..but i chose to let him rein me back
why am i so weak!
so sentimental