I think..i

i think too much..
i think i worry too much..
work is driving me nuts. why cant i just try to be a lil' less responsible and be more carefree?
maybe i inherited my .mom's worry genes..
like today..i help to send a short position outbound. approvals came in but colleague rejected cos he said it was across the booking centre..he feels that from a risk control perspective, the approvals is not enough..and he said maybe compliance is required..
god..here i am trying to help him clear his breaks, he has to give me this crap..
before the settlement date and i have to get compliance?? just get the approval and inform dealer to get the broker to amend the bloody confo...
i went to hk and sg compliance..no response..sent 2 chasers and the head of legal responded with am ambiguous answer..citing..isnt this lrcc's approval?
crap!
lrcc stands for legal risk and compliance..under 1 roof dear idiot..
and she cant internally forward my correspondence..she had to suan me...
and provide me with a person's contact to check with when they are sitting in 1 bloody floor...
what the f*** i tell u...and no one responded..6:30 pm..sent email to head of business risk management.no response..
i left
and when i reached home
i fucking forgot if the settlement date that hk short sell was on 22nd..
i just got damn paranoid..
i call my colleague many times..he switched off his phone...
i was so paranoid that maybe i saw wrongly and that th esettlement date would be today and there may be a buy in..fuck..and who's gonna bear the cost?
i had to down myself with 3 glasses of wine to calm myself down..
sometimes i find myself..obsessively worrying myself for nothing..
i worry myself excessively and sometimes to the extreme
and ended up ...for nothing..
im just going to enjoy my weekend and fuck care abt work..
im so sick of people making me take their rap..for their oversight..like yesterday's case...
thank god i was not a sucker..
i fought my way and finally its resolved...
im so sick of arrogant wealth managers..bitchy pieces of shite..
trying to get their way by throwing their weight ard..
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p:s: its the john kosovich pinot talking...