Coddie my Love

Dear Coddie,

i feel that i have been an extremely bad mother to you.

i have always thought that i was giving and doing the best for you but i always ended up hurting you.

words cannot explain how sorry for engaging the wrong trainer , sathia and lance.

the former hit you and made you had swelling and infection which led to liver inflammation and the latter used the electric collar and metal spokes as a collar to control ur barking and walking.

you actually walk fine, and you wouldnt have barked incessantly if i had nt neglected you.

you lived strongly and recovered when all the vets in mt pleasant tld me to put you down.

that was when you were only 2 yrs and you went thru so much

today you're age 7 yrs.

i spotted a huge 7cm tumour mammany gland on ur 2nd nipple.

i made the decision to spay you when you were 2 yrs ago past ur 1st heat but my brother stopped me and said i no right to do so.

who was i to rob you of ur glands etc..

you being my first pet, i didnt know what was best...all i know was that i didnt want you to hurt and i did everything to hurt you.

i read so much abt mammary gland over the night and yours seems to fall under malignant and i cant let you go..

i cant i cant i cant...imagine that you'll be gone but i dont want you to be in pain although you're nt in pain now.

i love you..and i can only hope for the best

and i hope you'll be strong and forgive me for nt loving you enough and taking care of you.

im bringing you to see a doctor later.

he would be x-raying ur chest and a possible surgery today or tom.

im sorry coddie ...

i just want to focus in saving you