We slept apart.. We woke up apart..We didnt kiss goodbye when i went to work.. We didnt message one another at work.. We didnt call one another..We ate in silence.. we are apart tonight..
No words can express how remorseful i am.. for what i did..
I sat on the knee of a guy friend..i wrote words with my butt .. i made the birthdaw boy drink for all the times he made us drink till we go bonkus..
I have hurt the one who loves me who thinks im fooling around behind his back..
He saw my perched on a guy's lap and he thinks i have slept with him!
I felt so offended but who am i to be angry?
I have been truthful to him in all things that i do.. im sorry i did wrong and i may have to pay dearly for my brainless action ..for sitting on a guy's knee!
I dont blame him..
He has every right to be angry..
I would have been mad too if i were him.
Im just waiting for him to say we're through..
a Girl posted all my crazy pictures on facebook..needless to say, my bf would get even more furious.
I cried last night as i lay next to him..with his back facing me..
i cried this afternoon at work when i felt overwhelmed at work and i didnt have him to call
i cried in the garden when i got out of his car..when he said he doesnt need me to stay over
im crying now..as im typing this because im losing someone so dear to me.
I used to use the words" break up" so freely but he thought me a lesson that i'll never forget..
and i swore never to use those words again
and now i've learnt my lesson..there may not be a second chance again..
I used to be really full of pride! and i'll never allow myself to wallow in tears and self pity...
what have i become..
i think i have come to a point whereby i love him more than he loves me..
can i be with someone who loves me lesser?
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