The newspaper failed to come again. Whats going on?
Called the vendor but his mobile is off. Super Pissed...
Why is it that whenever my mom is not well, everything seems to go wrong?
The house starts to gather dust ; Coddie seems listless ; I am listless..

I visited my mom yesterday. She was finally willing to meet up with me.
She said that she wanted to check out by this week but thats really out of the question.
She seems fine ..her bahaviour seems fine but once she speaks, she talks about numerology, how she's going to get the contractor to do up the house, and when i say thats not going to happen, she's not coming home to this place cos she has to stay away from my dad, she started to be moody and angry and she asked me to shut up.

**shrug** going to see her daily is like subjecting myself to an emotional landmine.
I have to listen to her rant insensibly about buying 2 houses, about how A+ blood are extraordinary people with depression...and O+ are ordinary people...how thankfully my bf is more towards the aquarius side and not to the capricon as his birthday is borderline..as he might have 2 marriages..how i must not have children so that the mad genes can stop at my generation..

:(

i have to hear all these..how my dad tortured her..
I HAVE TO BE THE ONLY ONE TO HEAR ALL THESE

her friends didnt want to come visit..they are scared
my relatives may not want to visit..
my brother is overseas
and my dad cant come cos he is the root cause

HENCE THERE'S ONLY ONE PERSON ME!

Im not very strong..i can feel it.
There's no support.. so many things to do.
mom has planted in me paranoia.. i feel insecure..i feel unhappy.. i feel over-burden..i feel that life is just unfair

but i must always know that there are people worse off than me..so thats how i console myself

why is my blog full of pessimism and complaints>

there's simply nothing good that i write about..